Saturday, November 5, 2011

give me reason, I am pleading

Hey. it's been a long while, I know -- a full year and a half, and counting. I'm sixteen now. I've had my driver's license since July of this past summer. Sadly, though, not much in my life has changed.

My parents are my parents, demanding and overbearing. My sister is off at school.

I'm a Junior now, in the same school, in the same house, with the same people and pets and life.

My best friend... isn't my best friend anymore. She ditched me for popularity, and slowly started phasing me out of her life last year. Now, we have a class together, which forces us to talk. We're working on getting close again. I don't know where that's going to go, and I'm still mad at her over everything that happened. She should have been there for me through everything, and I should have been there for her. That's how it's supposed to be. I cried a lot, from October 2010 to June 2011. It was cruel of her to ignore my calls and texts, pretend to be busy, ignore me in the hallways. But somehow, when I'm around her now, I feel the strongest desire I've ever felt. To be close with her again, to have what we had before, only better. I'll be a better best friend. I'll be more outgoing, I'll hang out with her more, and I'll have better advice. I'll be more witty, I'm prettier now and I'll try harder with everything. Friendships can leave you just as vulnerable as relationships.